We're bombarded with messages to lose weight, get fit, shed pounds, diet, detox, fast, run, jump, juice, drop carbs, eat clean, go raw, try Paleo, lift stuff, throw stuff, bend, stretch, twist…
It’s exhausting just thinking about it.
And every year you have a little bit less motivation for something that, deep-down, you know won't create permanent change.
How about, instead of punishing your body into submission and forcing yourself to do things you don’t want to do, you try a different approach?
What if I told you that in just a few minutes a week, we could remove the blocks that keep you stuck at a weight you’re not happy with.
How does that sound?
By working on the subconscious reasons you hold on to excess weight and consume stuff that makes you heavy, we can completely transform your relationship with food, your body, and ultimately that means one thing –
We create the blueprint for loving your body, and you create a body that you love.
We know that thoughts become things.
We know that ‘self-love’ and ‘body positivity’ seem to hold a mysterious key to losing weight.
But when you have so many mind monkeys constantly whispering messages of self-hate and body negativity to you, self-sabotage is inevitable.
And so on and off the wagon we go, everything – food, days, ourselves – judged as ‘good’ or ‘bad’.
From the moment we wake up, to when we hit the pillow (and sometimes in the middle of the night) we’re confronted with decisions about food.
And when there’s so much stress around a topic, it’s impossible to get permanent, enjoyable results.
I get it.
Ever since I can remember, I thought I was fat.
That there was something not quite right with me, physically.
I felt big, ungainly, and self-conscious.
When I left home, I fell into a diet-cycle where I repeatedly lost and gained weight.
Sometimes it was ten pounds, sometimes it was thirty, sometimes (after I had each of my three babies) it was more like sixty.
Any 'victory' was not only short-lived, it was tainted by the knowledge that ‘thin me’ would only be around as long as I kept dieting, and the inner knowing that I couldn’t keep it up.
And on it continued.
For my entire adult life.
Two decades saw me trying all sorts of diets and diet products. Atkins, Cambridge, Slim-Fast, Weight Watchers, Slimming World, Fasting, Juicing, Detoxing.
I was locked in a battle with my body – I could either give it what it wanted, or deprive it, and both felt like losing.
My body. Separate from me.
After reaching breaking point, I was begging the Universe for a solution.
And as always, the teacher appeared.
I signed up to work with Samantha Skelly, founder of Hungry for Happiness (and now one of my dearest friends).
At the first session we talked about my relationship with food. At one point she told me to ‘Drop into your body. What does it feel like in your body?’
I had literally no idea what she was talking about.
I realised that until then, I existed, worked, and lived in my head.
All of my work was done alone or on Skype. All my photos taken from the bust up (ideally shoulders up). I had convinced myself that no-one knew that I was fat, and that it was fine as long as I dieted before I travelled or spent time with people who didn’t already know me.
As I tried to ‘get into my body’ I was repulsed.
The sensation of connecting with this meat sack attached to my head was hideous.
Why was there so much pain and stress around my body and my weight?
My first instinct was to sack the whole process and go back to my default – dieting.
But I knew it would only be a temporary fix.
I had twenty years of evidence to prove that it would last a few months, at most, before I was gaining weight again - and losing my last few scraps of confidence.
I reminded myself of how I felt at a business event, surrounded by savvy entrepreneurs, some of them sharply dressed, certainly none of them in a saggy, baggy, comfortable dress chosen because it didn’t dig in to their skin.
Over the next few months, Sam and I worked together every week.
I showed her how I use energy work to quickly identify and release the old baggage and patterns from the subconscious to bring about rapid change in the mind and body.
From then on we used Energy Editing in every session, and we smashed many old beliefs, stories, thought patterns and fears related to my body.
There were so many random things locked in my subconscious.
I was holding on to being fat as a form of protection (which was crazy as it made me feel so vulnerable).
My subconscious was terrified of change, so it sabotaged every attempt at diet and exercise.
I kept overeating because feeding the mind monkeys kept them quiet.
One by one, I released the monkeys, so that I could hear what my body wanted, and I began to inhabit my body in a way I hadn’t since my childhood.
Six months later, I was convinced there hadn't been any change.
I went to Pete, crying. The weather was warming up, and I feared spending another summer wanting to hide.
“I can’t do this anymore, I’m so awful, I’m so fat, and I’ve tried so hard and invested all this money, and cleared so many blocks - and it’s just not working.”
“It is working. Seriously.”
“Really? Don’t just say that to calm me down.”
“I promise. You’re just used to doing crazy diets and seeing drastic changes in a few days, so you can’t tell because this has been gradual.”
I made him repeat and elaborate on this about seventeen times before it began to sink in. It is working. I’m not punishing myself, and I am changing.
That bit of encouragement was all I needed to keep going.
I can’t tell you exactly how much weight I lost because I didn’t weigh myself.
I can you that I must have been around 12 stone in Thailand in February 2016, because I was almost as big as when I had Jackson.
When we moved house six months later I found the scales, and stepped on them without thinking. I was 8 stone 13.
A ‘stone’ is 14 pounds.
I’d gone from about 168 pounds to about 125, in a few months, without dieting, without punishing myself, and without exercising apart from a bit of gentle walking.
Ironically, those numbers mean nothing to me, and I haven’t weighed myself since.
I’m enjoying 2018 just like I enjoyed 2017 – never having to think about what I’ll wear, or feeling angry at myself because I’m overweight; I’m comfortable in my body, and having eaten exactly what I want, I easily fit all my clothes.
There’s a huge amount of mental space freed up, and happiness unleashed, that previously was engaged in a vicious fight with my body and my weight.
There’s no regime, no plan. There’s not even a regime pretending to be a ‘lifestyle change’ that I have to force myself to stick to.
Everything comes from within.
Our habits, our decisions, our relationship with our bodies.
It’s been over two years since I started this journey.
And over 18 months since I took that photo of me in white jeans.
(Wearing those jeans was a mini-miracle itself; self-conscious, ungainly me would never have worn white jeans.)
In late 2017 I received ‘the call’ from upstairs.
The instructions to run a programme to help people trapped in the same cycle, by using energy work to release the blocks that keep us stuck at an unhappy weight.
So that’s what's happenening.
A six-month mission to release you from the mind monkeys that torture you about your body.
We’re going to smash the subconscious blocks that keep you over-eating, so you can hear what your body really wants.
No diet plan.
No counting calories, points, sins, or minutes until you’re ‘allowed’ to eat again.
No punishing yourself, no rules about how much you’ve got to move, lift, or sweat.
Just you, and me, and a bit of your time.
Don’t spend another decade on the dieting rollercoaster.
Don’t spend another year where your confidence revolves around how much you’ve eaten.
Don’t build up to another holiday by starving yourself, only to get on the plane home close to tears because along with your tan you’ve gained more weight than you lost in the first place.
It does not have to be this way.
There are reasons why you eat the way you do, and they can be easily changed if you’ll just dedicate some time every week to letting them go.
If you’re fed up of dieting, fed up of giving so much of your time and attention to what you eat, fed up of punishing yourself, fed up of being fat, fed up of having your mood dictated by a number on the scales, fed up of exercising, fed up of being hungrier after a workout, fed up of starving yourself before a holiday, fed up of hiding behind other people in photos, fed up of having fat clothes and thin clothes, fed up of spending money on diet products, fed up of wondering if things will ever be different…
Join me and get Body Free.